I've decided today's post would be about what i believe on mind over matter, inspiration and still being you with an illness. There's so many people that think in illnesses that positivity will beat it all. And if you believe you have no pain then the pain will vanish. I believe it too a certain degree.I believe that if you aren't positive, if you aren't determined then you wouldn't even get up in the morning. I also agree if you focus on something it makes it worse and can strengthen the feeling. BUT that doesn't mean if you have an illness and you have pain its because of any other reason than you having that illness. Everyone has their own way of dealing with pain and emotions to what suits them. Personally for me its about having a little moan and rant to friends, them being understanding and offering some words of encouragement. After that its down to you whether you give up or let what's happening strengthen you.
I heard a true story yesterday about a girl who i think was a quadruple amputee who only had little movement in her hand. Doctors told her parents to put her institute; to give up on her and that she'd never achieve anything. Of course her parents didn't listen to them and decided to got their house equipped for her. All that time the girl kept determined and never gave up.She eventually through a lot of hard work and determination got qualifications and went to university!! The way this girl stayed so positive was through imagining herself to be dancing even though she was totally paralysed. This really inspired me, to never give up on anyone because there's no one to "broken beyond repair". <3
This status from my lovely friend Kate also inspired me; "been so nice playing with the bunnies, ballet talk & learning about an AMAZING dancer who's recovered from ME :D I've also decided for my birthday I want some tap shoes! even though I'm not well enough to dance , I'm going to sit on the end of my bed when in well enough & do the simple things but sitting down until I can stand for longer! ;) ♥". - If you know her then you know she's an amazing ballerina and i know in all honesty that she will get better and dance again one day. She is a fighter and so determined and i know she will beat this and full fill her dreams. :) <3
Somebody who's already there at the finishing line of M.E and gives me absolute inspiration and hope every day, is my friend Hanna. (A.k.a Bff padlock;She's been a regular mention in my blog post so you've heard of her before ;)) She had M.E and was bed bound for years yet she too was determined and put in so much hard work to get better. And she did it, she's so positive. And even now when she's still battling with medical problems; she's one of the most kind, determined and selfless people i know. So thankyou for being a true inspiration to me Hanna. :)
I write them in hope that someone whoever, who is reading this can smile and know that there's always a reason somewhere to smile. :) Unless with close friends or fellow AYME'ers i don't really like to talk about my illness too much. I get embarrassed going out in the wheel chair or looking pale or holding on to my friend or parents down the road hardly being able to walk and having extra help with things. People say it's nothing to be ashamed about and it's NOT. It's just sometimes you want to be known as yourself not the girl with the illness or somebody sick. You don't want pity. Your still you, just a fairy with a broken wing waiting to fly again i like to think. ;) I tend to want to be "normal" down to the very last detail, the make upped face, the in fashion clothes anything to fit in the mould and not be noticed or be different. That's down to a lot of things not to just my illness but then i've only just come to realise what is "normal"? Is it if we don't see someone crying, we assume their fine. Or if we see someone smiling or laughing their life is perfect. How do we know, because let's face it nobody knows how you feel except you. It's brilliant when you say your ok but you have them certain people who just instantly know your not. There there for you through it all and treat you like your you, support you and don't even have to ask for help or say your not well they just know. True friendship. <3
In life it's all about finding that perfect balance between knowing your limits but having that determination that lets you know everything will work out in the end because you're gonna make it. <3
Love Becca.
xox
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