Easter Surpriseeeeeeeeee's!

Heyyyyy,


I thought i would do a little blog update om what's been going on recently and seen as it's just been easter and look at what it means for my family! :)


So i know the religious reason for easter although i did learn something new this year... the reason we have easter eggs is because the rock that guarded the tomb where Jesus was buried was egg shaped! :O It just goes to show that there's always new things to be learnt. ;) I'm not really sure where i stand on the religious side of things, ironically i used to have a stronger belief in God when i was younger. I guess it's not all that ironic you don't really think about it, it's kinda automatically set upon you and you just take it in. But as you get older you stop to really question everything and what you believe. I don't know if i believe in that there's someone up there that created the whole world and so everything was just there,  that we were just there. Evolution is probably the most logical solution but whether it's the right one i really don't know. I don't think i'll ever be a go to church every  sunday but i'm always open to suggestions with religion. And i reckon as i grow older i'll learn more new things and continue to make my own choices based on that. :) 


I guess when things happen to a good people, you wonder how can this be?! How can their be a plan for this, it just seems cruelty especially when there are so many bad people in the world who don't seem to get their couupance. I think this is the main reason i started to folter from the traditional Christian faith. But on the other side, life is what you make it and you certainly are tested on how strong you are. Some people grow from the terrible experiences they face and sometimes i guess it can be purely bad luck. I just wonder if there is a God who created the whole world in his hands, isn't he gonna be the person that decides people fate rather than chance? Whatever the truth i hope there is something after this world, and it's not just a black nothing. I hope there is an afterlife where you are reunited with all your loved ones. because i do believe that my loved ones that have died are watching over me everyday. Naive as that may be, it's something i have always believed and hope i always do!


Anyway enough of the religious talk! ;) Let's talk about my easter... 

Happy Easter!!!

Love this!!! <3

Me and Hanna went for a hot chocolate and sit in lowther gardens near by which was so lovely! It was rather windy, we wished we brought Hanna's kite, oh well always next time. ;) 

Me, nan and Han.

Me and Hans with our goodies!!

My Easter gifts, still some more easter eggs
 in the the cupboard! :O

Easter sunday was nice, i got zoomed about in my wheelchair for the egg hunt. ;) Followed by a playdoh challenge; which i won. ;) We still had a prize to distribute not just crazy big kids. ;) Although i think your never too old to play with playdoh, my nan even joined in. ;) Not forgetting a bit of hangman and eye spy, mad cats we are. ;) Of course i know roast dinner too. :)

The Playdoh challenge. ;)

Afternoon tea with the parents which was nice even though it wiped me out for a while. :P

:) Nom! Obviously shared.
And still some left for the
next day. :P

Mum strangling dad in the old police
cells in the tearooms!

Hehehe, naughty Becca. ;)

And finally received the best surprise ever, when i found out i was going to be seeing sarwahh!! We met up at a pub/ premier inn in Wigan for a bit. :) Wish i could of seen her more but was so great to meet her and have a good giggle. Hehehe. :) Ended up chucking jelly beans at her glasses instead of her mouth = no aim or coordination what so ever. :P 

<3!

Feeding each other jelly beans! ;)



Hope you all had a lovely Easter in whatever you were doing!
Taken a bit of a blip since then well for a while really :P but anyhow could be worse. :) Gotta keep plodding along! ;) 


Keep smiling and love the ones around you who love you too. <3
Bye for now,love Beccaxox

Hobbies that make the days go by...

Hello, :)


I thought today's blog would be about hobbies, they're good for any spare time, enjoyment and relieving stress. Especially when your ill, finding your hobby is a good distraction and a great time passer. As i've mentioned before my hobbies are photography and jewellery making. I also love doing post to cheer people up when i have the energy. :) I'm still learning new things every day about my hobbies, you don't have to be already fantastic at something for it to be a hobby. Find something that really captures your attention and go for it. :) If you have the passion for it, your most likely gonna stay interested in it. :)

Lytham Windmill. :)

Lytham beach anchor. :)

Found this picture,
What matters most is how you see yourself!
This is appt for illnesses and photography! (You
can make a picture beautiful, it just depends on how you
see it!) 

I find photography quite low energy and very rewarding. :) I think with alot of hobbies you just have to mess around with it, work on them and then develop. I've got a canon power shot sx30is bridge camera, i intend to really master that and then eventually upgrade and keep working my way up. I've got my pictures in a couple local magazines, nothing major only the ones that get posted through the days to advertise the area but still i see it as a start. With photography you can almost find something that everyone takes for granted and really make it special. Like with alot of things i think it's how you see it is really important, if you see something as ugly and uninteresting and then that's what it becomes. But if you find something, anything at all you like about something even if it's not the whole thing, then you've found something with potential and promise. :) 

Pretty flower. :)

Love the look of this picture. :)

Ladybird Bracelet i made. :)

Unusual pretty bead
necklace i made. :)

Liquorice necklace i made. :) 

Quirky love, wooden heart bracelet,
i made.

 Jewellery making is such a great and popular hobby, for me sometimes when it get's fiddly and doesnt work out i get so frustrated! I almost have to be in the right mind set for making jewellery, but when i make a nice piece of jewellery it's nice and it's feels like i've made a use out of my day. I know how boring the days can be, but once you get a focus, even a tiny one it's make a difference! I've got so much to learn about jewellery making it's a real learning process, i've started going to my auntie's friend who's a really creative craft person and great at making jewellery! So hopefully i'll get some tips and come back and wow you all. ;) But until then i'm carrying on with what i know and picked up. :)

Basic Jewellery equipment when starting out:

. Jump rings (needed for bracelets, necklaces and sometimes even earrings! And great for attaching beads with!)

. Tiger wire (for bracelets and necklaces.)

. Pliers (i got a great pair in a jewellery making kit, they're multi functional ones. ;))

. Lobster clasps (for necklaces and bracelets so they can fasten into place. ;)

. Head pins ( Used for everything, to attach beads and charms on all jewellery!)

. And of course the main ingredient beads!

Once you have these your own your way to making some pretty jewellery! Practice makes perfect! :) (In upcoming blogs and when i've learnt lots more new things, i'll do some tutorial pics to show you. :) 

You've read about my hobbies, what are yours? When you find your hobby/ies it can soon become something that gives you pleasure and achievement everyday. :) Sometimes when ill finding hobbies you can pick up as and when your able can stop a whole load of boredorm and give you well needed boost. :)

http://www.facebook.com/Louslazydayzjewellery - like my jewellery page to keep up to date with new jewellery designs that i hope to keep coming up with. :)

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Life-is-like-photography-we-use-negatives-to-develop/223164891103538 - Like my photography page to see what continues to capture my eye in what i hope turns out to be a beautiful picture. :)

Photo of the week:

Teapot cloud!! I keep finding some
awesome clouds! :P Cloud's are so pretty
and great for working on your imagination. ;)

Love Becca
xox.

Panic stations...

Well hello :)


I thought today's blog would be on anxiety, its a really common thing but not that known about or explored by people. Also it can be really hard for friends and family to understand/ cope with as they don't know how your feeling. To them it's irrational, to the person with the anxiety it's your trapped normality...


What is anxiety?
I'm not gonna say a big fancy medical term of what anxiety is,instead i'm going to tell you from my personal experience. There's so many different sorts of anxiety, it can be the terror of a spider being in your room or getting really anxious over an exam. Mine is going out, seeing people or should i say people seeing me... To me anxiety is a world of feelings all be; terrible!You feel scared, nervous, terrified, worried, afraid and shockingly alone. All those over whelming feelings and thoughts can lead to panic attacks; hyperventilating, shaking ("legs like jelly" is the literal feeling but not just your legs but everywhere!), stabbing pains in your head, feeling like your going to collapse and feeling like you can't breathe and even being/feeling temporarily paralysed. - That is the very worse one when you work your body into such a state that it just literally freezes...


What anxiety leads to?
When you have anxiety you feel like you need to get out of the situation straight away. This then leads to you avoiding the situation and that can lead to a pretty vicious circle... You associate situations with panic and feeling "unsafe" so what do you do when your scared... panic and run. Anxiety can also lead to OCD, wanting everything in order and no germs. It's like a triple edged sword...


I remember when i was kid i was so afraid of dogs that i would literally go in the middle of the road to avoid them! Obviously over the years and a few near "accidents" it eased. This only really happened when my friend got a dog as a puppy, i became used to it and kinda fond of it. ;) It took time but this even led to me wanting my own dog which i now have; my "baby" Alfie. ;) 


How does anxiety start?
Well a bad experience can start it, e.g. when i was a baby i remember the dog from across the road come running into our house and jumped up at me, it was a big dog and i was a little baby so it kinda terrified me. So that's where i think that started... Or anxiety can start from becoming unfamiliar with situations. Take me i missed 3 and half years of school and interaction with people. Being ill meant i couldn't/ can't go out that much and so you get into a cycle of being reclused from the world outside, and home being the "safe place." You get so used to being in your own company and only interacting with family and friends that everything is feels daunting. 


How to kick the anxieties butt?
This one isn't so easy... i've not cracked the code on that one yet. There's some things to make it easier to manage like; breathing techniques and breaking up scenarios into little sections so everything doesn't seem so big. Familiarize yourself again so going on little trips little and often. Obviously with anxiety you tend to want to avoid the situation because you know when you go there, the feelings and thoughts you get and assume the worst. So often family and friends have to give you a little encouragement but it's also knowing your limits and what YOU feel comfortable with. I mean some people just assume that you should be able to snap out of it or to really push you out of your comfort zone and then you will be fine. Anxiety doesn't work like that if there was a stern word i could say to myself to make seeing people easier , i would of done it by now! I know you have to push yourself a little even though i hate to admit it but to me i find every "normal" outdoor trip, me pushing it. For many people it's not a big thing but to me and the person feeling anxiety its HUGE. It's a tough one breaking the cycle and on days i wonder if i ever will but i have supportive friends and family and whole lot of dreams i want to fullfill. :)


Anyone who has anxiety that stops them doing things will know that it feels like a trap, your own little jail in your head. There's so many things you want to do but don't want too no can't do because you feel too scared to and for me the fear of people looking at me and seeing me over rules my want too. E.g this example could be used for the M.e and anxiety... imagine having zilch energy and trying to climb a mountain every step feels a mammoth task and any progress you make can drop you back to the bottom when the wind comes and knocks you for 6! And when you have illness it makes a double whammey!! It makes it easier to get out of the "life loop" and not have the energy to bother. 


Family and friends who have to cope with your anxiety also have the battle, they remember what you were like before, they can do everyday normal things without to much thought so anxiety can become an alien concept. They have to get used to listening to you and manoeuvring you out of situations your uncomfortable with. Knowing when to push you and knowing when to stand back. It affects their life to because you can't do all the things they want and seeing you so distressed is distressing for them! It's a real learning curve, but the best advice i can give is to tell them how your feeling. I don't expect my friends and family to understand but more accept that i have limits and i'm trying my best even when it looks like i'm not trying at all...

So yeah anyone with anxiety little steps and you'll get there, :) and i hope i will too. <3


Photo of week:

Love this pic of my beautiful wifey!!
 Looks a right model picture, such a good model for me!!
And whilst we are on the anxiety subject, this girl
is always around to give me a kick in the butt ;), yet
be patient with me. So thankyou! <3 <3

Before i go here's a link for my facebook page i've set up to show the jewellery i've been making. You know what to do... CLICK THE LINK! ;) - http://www.facebook.com/Louslazydayzjewellery


Bye for now,
love Becca
xox