A little bit of freedom in a mad world...

Hey, i know my blog is a day late but was too tired to do it yest after being at the nursery. Most of you who read my blog  probably won't of even noticed but i'm rather control freakish about that stuff. ;) Anyway seen as with the illness and things that come with it, control and freedom are two things you pretty much don't have. You don't know how you will be from one day to the next, it's rather debilitating and you always need help or support at some point in the day. You pretty much feel useless sometimes, so when you can get even a little bit of freedom its like a breath of fresh air. Sometimes literally. ;) The last couple of weeks haven't been so good but my friends and family support is great. So i thought today's blog would be about sometimes the little things actually being the biggest of all. 

One of the loves of my life - Ducks :)
Steph (my sister) got it me to cheer me up. :D

My amazing gifts off Hanna. <3

 

Beautiful tulips off Hans. :)

I don't where i'd be without my amazing friends, Hanna brought me round some lovely treats to cheer me up. Which was so so lovely and kind of her! We did facemasks and a bit of fruit fun. ;) haha! Then the next day Hans brought me some purple tulips and sat with me when i wasn't feeling well . If that wasn't enough the amazing Sophie collected some messages for me and sent a lovely package to cheer me up. It's so lovely to have friends who are there for you and always let me know i'm not alone. <3


Hans took me out last weekend to get out of the house and do something independent. Ok it was only to the Crematorium where are grandparents are (wild i know ;)) but was lovely little push,  we had a chat and sat by the pond. It was nothing major but to me it meant alot. Although Hans a bit of a phobia about ducks, which wasn't good when we got followed!!! ;) Hans still had to push me and shizz but at least it was the nearest bit of 'normal' i'm gonna get at the moment. <3 So thankyou Hans!! 

Prettyful :)

Quite like this :D

My fav photography pic! :D

I Love this girl! <3

Our Birdy friend!! ;)

 Momma and Papa took me to the beach the week before to take some photography pictures with the tripod. Watching the sun is just lovely, yes i love the simple things in life. :) So yes it's not the greatest, but even in this mad world it's to know i have people to literally keep me sane. ;) 

Silhouette of me, mum and dad. :) 

Birds in the sun. :) - "I'll spread my wings
and i'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it
takes till i touch the sky. I'll make a
wish, take a chance, make a change
and break away. Out of the darkness
and into the sun." <3

It might not be the way i hoped, but where i can i will grab my bit of freedom and make the best of what i've been given. One thing to be so thankful for, this life has lead me to some amazing people that get me  through, and for that i truly am. <3


Bye for another week,
love Becca.
xox
                                                               

Dream a dream; Do before die list :)

I've been thinking alot lately about what goals i want to achieve, places i wanna go and things i wanna do in my lifetime. So thought it would be good to do my do before die list as a blog post. So here it goes, there's so much on my list so to not bore you guys to death and kill me at the same time ;) i'm gonna do my top 10...


1. Go to Disneyworld in Florida, do the whole universal studios, seeing where Harry potter was filmed and SWIM WITH DOLPHINS!! :D It's been my dream since an iccle girl so not gonna stop dreaming now! ;D

2. MEET ONE DIRECTION with Soph!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

3. Skydive!!!!! That would the biggest adrenaline rush ever, scary shizz but totally worth the worry!!

4. Work at an orphanage or school abroad, somewhere like South Africa as i would love to get the teaching and life experience, do some charity work (make a difference :)) and see the amazing animals and sights doing a safari! Even ride a camel or elephant! ;D

5. Go to London, see all the tourist attractions, go shopping (Harrods ;))and go see a west end show! :)

6. Road trip America with Hans :) 

7. Become a Child psychologist or primary school teacher. Wherever i end up i know i want to work with children and yes again make a difference. ;)

8. Meet my supportive, amazing and inspirational friends from Ayme that i haven't met yet. <3 

9. Go to Paris, see Disney land and most importantly get to the top of Eiffel tower! See you there Kate and Kels ;) <3

10. Climb a mountain just cause i can ;D and go camping!!! Staring at the stars and toasted marshmallows! ;D

Mount Everest! :)

So there it is my list :) There's so many more thing i wanna do... Go to rome; see where Romeo and Julliet was set go to that Famous balcony. See it all, do it all. Have the traditional white wedding (horse and cart) and a family... eventually! ;) But most of all BEAT THIS ILLNESS AND ALL THE CRAP THAT COMES WITH IT! Because without that i won't full fill any of my dreams and on the days where i can never see it happening i think of this list and my amazing friends and family to give me hope for tomorrow. :)

So in the words of my blog tittle "Never give up." <3

Bye for now, 
Becca
xox

We are who we are...

Seen as i'm new to all this blogging lark i don't really know where to start...So for today's blog i thought i'd talk about perceptions. For something as simple as having this internet to write this blog or even knowing how to spell, write and function is a perception. To me do i really think every time i write another word, "omg i can spell"... no i dont think of it all just same old same old. But to someone in the third world who hasn't got the education to learn or maybe even know what a netbook is, it would be boggling for them. The fact that i can have access to water but don't really like to use it unless to clean myself would again be a mystery to them. They wouldn't understand i don't like water, or that i fancy a glass of lemonade rather than what i think  to be (boring) water, they would just see i have excess to water whenever i want and they don't. Does it make me or them wrong? No because its a perception. I find it boggling how really rich people live, their celebrity lifestyle. Buying anything they want, when they want it, designer labels and red carpet events. To those third world kids we are filthy rich and lucky. But yet don't we at least find ourself moaning about something we want, "need" or are mad at. Again not us being selfish it's just how we live. We see a celebrity have a meltdown and think "what the hell have they got to worry about." We dont stop and think what stress their under or what's caused them to feel like that we just make an judgement off how we are feeling. So yeah people may be having it worse than some people, some people may have a worser illness or bigger problems but who says to that person it doesn't feel the same weight of issue. Who's to say how we handle that particular situations wrong? Because at some point we must feel it's the right decision for us, it's how we cope. It's how we live, it's who we are. :)

"Let's go and eat our body weight in jelly beans one day." -
 Me and sarah have plans when we is better. ;) 

Take one day out of my week having a phonecall with and friend and talking about jelly beans, might be mind numbingly boring to some of you but to me it was funny and made me smile. Because that's me but come on who seriosuly couldn't not think those people are just awesome!! ;) Having weird and wonderful conversations with friends just because you're bored or feel like it makes me happy because its always nice in a crazy world just to laugh about any old thing!

Make the biggest splash you can , afterall you only get one life. 
 Make it magical. <3

Photography is a major perception, i might percieve a taking picture of running water giving me a metaphor about life. Other people might just see a picture of running water. It's what works for you. It doesn't mean my opinion is better than theirs or visa versa it's just all down to the individual.


Seriously crazy how much is perception like every little tiny minuscule thing is.Down to me liking the sofa i sit on to, to what brand of toothpaste i think cleans my teeth best!
And probably if you sat there and thought about it, it would drive you crazy but really the people we are impacts on the decisions we  make and how we react to certain situations. 


 I guess where the inspiration for this particular post come from was knowing that's theres a million people out there who are worse than me in life situations but also a million people who have it better. But that's just me and my opinion, so yeah from time to time i'm gonna feel down, just as long as you know you are gonna brush yourself off and get back up again when you have the strength too. I heard a quote that said "Giving up doesn't mean your weak, it merely means you've been strong for too long."  I think this quote is true :), I don't mean ever to give up on life i just mean at the end of a bad day or days you allow yourself to say "it's ok not to be ok." Because that's how you feel and if your not being real to yourself and those around you how can you ever be truly fulfilled with your life or who you are! So yeah to all those people out there feeling down or feel differently to what you think you should or have been told is "right" it's ok, you are allowed, it doesn't make you weak and selfish. There's stigma if you are depressed or have psychological issues your "crazy" but to me i don't think it should be that way. Whatever's up is your stuff and i'm sure every single person on this planet has 
some "stuff" somewhere along the line.  It's makes us like every person on this planet, human! ;P Whether it's  little or big "stuff" everyone has it because more people aren't 100% perfect all the time It's what we all have in common and always will, unless science creates a super human. ;)

So that's me another waffle over, i hope those who have read have enjoyed and i totally haven't sent you into a pit of depression. ;) A question to leave you with... Do you have to be pure perfection to be perfect or is it infact your inperfections that you make you perfect? Is it our mistakes and learning from them that mould us into who our loved ones love and adore. Afterall being perfect, isn't that just boring? ;)


Bye for now,
Becca xox

Starting over...

Hello pplz, :) As seen as its a new year i thought i'd start a new blog. I did start one on me and my illness but figured why limit myself...lets just talk about anything!! Whether it be about me and my M.E or totally random like what's actually good out of something that we see as a bad thing. i think we all have to admit rather finding a good in something we always let the negative over rule. Take my illness which unfortunately does feel like it majorotises the old glass half empty rule in my life but lets just take a look at the good from it:


1. I have the most AMAZING FRIENDS i could ever wish for. That almost certainly i wouldn't have met if i didn't have M.E and all the other rubbish things that come with it.
2. I've learnt to appreciate the little things in life which are often taken for granted. Like nipping to the shop, or being up to going to my friends house or even finding the energy to write this blog. :)
 3. I can go to the shops during school time and not get trampled in my wheelchair, always good especially in the January sales. ;) Not that i go on big shopping fests cause i cant but even a little trip to lytham to look at 2 or 3 shops is something to smile about. :)
4. I most likely wouldn't of got into the crafty sides of things and even learned how to make jewellery.

Where i met so many important, inspirational friends! <3

5. Doing my Gcse's was always a major importance to me... nerd ;)... but the fact that i only got 3 and half made me appreciate them all the more!
6.The goods days with my friends like parading the street with shower caps on and facemask pretending to be ducks... you know what i mean Kate ;) Or sitting on santa's lap with Hanna or having a mini party with silly string and relaxtion music with Soph. ;) Or even the bad days are made better when Hans comes round to keep me company even when im not even the greatest of companies. Even the odd crazy makeover. ;) Or getting post that my wonderful, inspirational friends have made me to cheer me up. :)

Middle of street pretending to be ducks = Best times. <3

7. I've taken up photography which im really enjoying especially experimenting with the new camera i got for christmas.:D

Relaxing party with Soph.= Amazing!!! <3

Bff padlock crimbo times. :)

So although I'm never all that enthuisastic when it comes to whats good about my life
                   there is a
few


things to be thankful for. When you have to sit here and think of the good things you realise you should appreciate it because some people don't even have that. :)

Crazy makeovers with the wifey. <3

I love my quotes because even on the bad days in life they almost give you the hope that you can get through it.<3 So here are a few of my favourite quotes:


"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together keep me in your heart ill stay there forever."


"A pinky promise is serious." - This quote is an important one to me due to a special friend of mine.<3 I believe there is no truer promise. ;)


"Don't tell me the sky's the limit, when i can see footprints on the moon."


"Courage doesn't always roar, sometimes its the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I'll try again tomorrow.' "- My list of quotes could go on forever but im sure over time with my blogs you will learn a few more. ;)


So am i convincing you yet that life aint all bad, aswell as trying to convince you secretely im trying to do the same to me. ;) But seriously on a bad day when you can only see the negatives, sit back and see if you can find the good in it. Take today it is totally pouring down, cold and windy. But what is the good out of that... let's see if i can come up with 6 good things...
1. Why worry about doing your hair when its only gonna get messed up anyway... Spend an extra 10 minutes in bed. ;)
2. You can get in your wellies and shut in a puddle... just for the pure hell of it. ;)
3. You can literally act out "I'm singing in the rain." Why not have a bit of a giggle. ;)
4. All the dirt and leftover rubbish from Christmas and new years will get washed away to literally start a fresh.:)
5. You can come home get in a warm bubble bath, snuggle in some pj's and totally relax!!
6. The reflections off the puddles are pretty...could even be a good photo opportunity. ;)
I bet you didn't think i could do it did ya... But hooray instead of seeing rain as a total reason to be fed up i've found some awesome ways to have funnnnn. Yes yes i'm random but you will learn that over the coming blogs  and maybe even learn to love it... Doubtful but i can hope can't I? ;)


So this is me and my first proper blog, hope i haven't bored you all to death and you will enjoy my upcoming blogs. :) I hope this blog makes you smile and for any of you who are feeling sad at the moment... turn that frown upside down. ;D And for those who are already smiling...You have won a prize...


...MY TELEPATHIC APPLAUSE. Now that is something money can't buy... ;)


Bye for now,
Becca :) xox