The missing link...

Today's blog is about missing people/things. There's so many different types varying from; seeing your best friend everyday to suddenly not so you miss them because you've got used  to it. Missing someone thats away for a while, it's a sudden change and let's face it nobody really likes change. Missing someone who you speak to everyday but don't see - long distance friendships/relationships. Missing someone that's died , missing your old school or if your someone that's ill or had an accident; your old life. Every single different missing brings out a different emotion, you can be angry for someone for leaving you or dying even when its not there felt its an emotion that crops up. Or you blame yourself, wishing there was something you could of done. When does it go from thinking about someone every single day to just the odd day when you hear a song or see something that reminds you of them, even a smell can bring someone to mind! I know that i still miss people every day! You can miss someone so much it actually hurts! ;P Sounds weird but yes you have so many different emotions and every one of them is because you care and love the person/ thing! 


I've felt all the different sorts of missing someone and i don't think any sort is nice because in some cases its like a part of you isn't all there , you just feel incomplete. It makes you so sad but surprisingly sometimes hope and courage comes from that! And why, well if someone has passed away you hope that there still around watching over you.  I not sure what i believe in but all i know is that i really hope that there's something afterwards and you are reunited with your loved ones somehow some way. 


Hope maybe can come from when someone has suddenly gone away and you want to see them again, hearing from them, anything that tells you that there is hope there and you will see them again. When you put a belief into something or someone and you love them, then you will find even when life tells you its all over you still have that little bit of hope left at the bottom of the barrel when you thought you'd scraped it. 


I miss my old life but i don't want it to be how it was, i miss what i'm stopped into becoming. I always imagined and almost planned how i thought everything would be, it just goes to show you cant really plan for life because its like rolling a dice you never really know what you're gonna get. I think i will always plan subcontiously because that's just who i am but maybe i should live more for the moment so disappointment doesn't strike. Although ironically wheres there's disapointment there's hope. Hope is what makes you never give up on a dream, a person or a principle. When you want something you can miss it although you never actually had it! It's like missing a dream! Sometimes it's that hope and  want from missing that forces you to make a change and not to give up. So maybe its a good thing in some ways but not in others. In life we don't have the choices, we don't have the answers, we don't want things to change but they will we don't want some people to leave but they do. We have to adjust, keep going and cherish the time you do have with people or lifestyles because you never know when it's gonna change. 


Me missing my past and my future makes me not give up but i still hope one day i will get better and become a child psychologist or primary school teacher, go to Disney world and do all the things i feel i've missed out on whether it be something as silly as jumping in a puddle to a day at university! Me missing my friend who i talk to everyday but don't see makes me do a concious effort to see them and make every visit special. Me missing a friend thats away suckssssssssss but i will never give up on them or the hope of seeing them again. Me missing loved ones that have died makes me hold onto the memories and hope that although its the end, them being in my life isn't over because they made a difference to who i am and what i turn into. And that in another place another time another world! i will see them again. 

Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about. Love life and the ones in it. I know as most my friends will know i've not been on a total love life spree at the moment ;),  but no matter what i say i still hope that one day the life i miss and the people i miss will turn out the way i hope. I know it's not just gonna happen and its down to me and shall we say destiny ;) I don't have it figured out and i don't think i ever will but i hope i'll never stop trying and neither should you! ;)


Photo of the week:

My amazing and talented friend Sarwahh
drew this of me and i think it's so
fantastic!!! Definite deserver
of photo of the week!! :D


Love Becca
xox

I believe in a thing called L.O.V.E.

Today's blog is on a Mahoosive thing called LOVE. You may of heard of it. ;)

The idea came from my friend Sarwahh when we were talking about Take me out. ;) Love that show!! ;) And it got me thinking does love have to happen in conventional ways? Everyone has their own idea of perfect whether things turn out how they're planned is another thing...  Is it right when you can't find love in all the conventional places, should you then try a less conventional route? E.g Dating websites or say a certain dating show *cough cough, take me out.* Me being a hopeless romantic would love to have a fairytale love story. But let's face it i don't think i'm gonna find my prince charming whilst i stuck in my four walls, he ain't just gonna walk past the window see me and fall to his knees and we live happily ever after. ;) I can but dream. ;) Does finding your Mr/Mrs right be any less special the way we find to how we've been bought up to believe it should be. From a young age everybody is brought up on fairytales and love conquering all. Yada yada yada and although it would be brilliant if thats the way it was its not like that all the time. Let's face it nothing or no one in this world is "normal" because what is normal? It's everybodies own definition and with the billions of people on the planet that's gonna vary. ;) So yeah i'd love for it all to run smoothly but i don't see thayt happening if it does than yay but if it doesn't the end product is still the same. Who's to say my journey is any less perfect to the next persons. <3


I don't think you'd find me on any dating show but hey thats me and if the end result is love and gives me a bit of entertainment on a saturday night how can i disagree? ;)

N'awwwwwwwwww <3

When you say love, i'm guessing you automatically think of people in relationships/ dating but to me i think of all my loved ones like my friends and family. Yes yes that's probably because i'm a sad singleton ;) but love is much more than one thing. To me when you love someone, they make you happy, you can be your complete self round them and they love you for it. You can't imagine your life without them and want to protect them, lots of lovely feelings of safety and secureness too. :) You feel a warm fuzzy feeling around the heart area. Some people that may just be heart burn at work, haha but for the most its love.


 Love is literally all around us, it's probably the strongest and most common bond in the world. When you love something its the best feeling in the world. whether it be a boy/girlfriend, parent, a pet, a friend or a dvd. I wouldn't necessarily think you could use the description i've said of love for everything because to me thats the blanket area of it. It varies like i'm not gonna get a warm fuzzy feeling over a dvd like i would say as cuddling my dog. But still i love them both just in different ways. They both make me happy and i want them both in my life but i feel a deeper bond with my pet than i do with titanic. Although that film gets me every time, what a love story that was. ;)

I guess what i'm saying is don't lose hope on love just because you haven't met the love of your life yet doesnt mean you never will. Infact you are surrounded by it already... all you need is love der der der der der dem... ;) Don't be so close minded on love because you could be holding out for perfect when perfect is already there because it's what you make it to be.<3 


Well now i've ranted about my idea of LOOOVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEE, here's a classic chat up line i heard on last night's advert for take me out i just have to share; "Have you got a plaster cause i cut my knee falling for you!" ;')

Photo of the week:

In the theme of love, this seemed pretty
app. ;) <3




Cherish the ones you truly love because there the ones that  look after you when the world's going crazy around you. <3

Love
Becca.
xox

10 things to do in a dilemma... :)

Heyyyyy,

Thought today's post would be some tips for when life hits a snag... ;)

1. Keep calm... yes your probably stressed as hell but it tends to be when you get stressed and wound up everything seems about a million times worse! And everything tends to go wrong because your body is just so hyped it then it starts to make mistakes.

2. Tell a confidant... this can be a trusted friend or supportive family member. They will most likely calm you down, give you some advice and generally support you all the way. :)

3. Chunk it up into little steps... this is a really good technique that could be used for most things whether it be; anxiety, getting stressed or a long busy day. When everything is put together it all seems massive, scary and undo-able. But if you chunk it up into little sections everything seems more manageable.  Just focus on that one step and forget about the rest, "why worry about tomorrow when you're still living today." For example if you were nervous about performing in a show... just focus on learning your lines, simple as that then take it from there before you know it, doing the little steps has equalled you doing the whole thing!

4. Get a distraction... everyone needs a distraction every now and then and when better if you're a bit fed up or worried and need to have a bit of fun. Do something that you love, whether it be going out with a friend, eating your favourite food or starting a new project. :)

5. Step back... not literally ;) but sometimes you can become too involved in a situation so the best thing to do is step back. Think it through clearly and return to the situation when it all seems clearer. That way you can gain back the control... don't let whatever the problem take a handle on you. Grab the bull by the horns so to speak. ;) 

6. Stay positive... this is a particularly hard one to do but it's something that just has to be done! I saw this quote once and it made me lol... "When life hands you lemons, make lemonade." Haha ;) Of course you have to allow yourself to be upset and feel all your emotions, we are only human afterall! But then decide to use whatever life has thrown at you or what mistakes that  have been made as something to learn from grow and strengthen you because of it. Just because something isn't happening right now or going wrong doesn't mean it will always be that way. 

7. Relaxation.. A bit of relaxation is always good, get your candles out, oil burner and listen to some calming music. Sometimes you just need to chill and breakaway before or after you face an issue! Hummmm ;)

8. Stop the thought process... if you think about it we tend to have everything set out in our head. Certain expectations, if you don't know someone you create your own picture, trying out a new recipe - you already have it all decided what you think it should taste like and how it should be. Same for dilemma's anytime anything bad happens we always think the worse or pysch ourself out to how we think the situation will turn out. Instead of a dream catcher... a thought catcher. ;) Anytime you notice a bad thought coming into your head bin it you don't need it and its actually hindering you rather than helping. Once you work out what's making you so scared or bothering you then you can work on that and really think what it is that actually troubles you about it. 

9.Look for inspiration...  whether it be in a quote, a pep talk from a role model, your religion or listening to a song. The answers always out there somewhere you just have to search for it. :) 

10. Finally... make a decision and stick to it... nobody knows how you feel better than you so once you've thought it all through make a decision and stick to it. It's always best to listen to your first instinct. :)

Thought i would start a photo of the week each blog can be from the internet, a picture i've taken or something that has inspired the photography eye. ;)

Photo of the week:

It's a photo i took at a place called Fairhaven lake,
it got printed in a local magazine this week. :D

Love Becca.
xox

Finding that perfect balance...

Hello again, :)


I've decided today's post would be about what i believe on mind over matter, inspiration and still being you with an illness. There's so many people that think in illnesses that positivity will beat it all. And if  you believe you have no pain then the pain will vanish. I believe it too a certain degree.I believe that if you aren't positive, if you aren't determined then you wouldn't even get up in the morning. I also agree if you focus on something it makes it worse and can strengthen the feeling. BUT that doesn't mean if you have an illness and you have pain its because of any other reason than you having that illness. Everyone has their own way of dealing with pain and emotions to what suits them. Personally for me its about having a little moan and rant to friends, them being understanding and offering some words of encouragement. After that its down to you whether you give up or let what's happening strengthen you. 


I heard a true story yesterday about a girl who i think was a quadruple amputee who only had little movement in her hand. Doctors told her parents to put her institute; to give up on her and that she'd never achieve anything. Of course her parents didn't listen to them and decided to got their house equipped for her. All that time the girl kept determined and never gave up.She eventually through a lot of hard work and determination got qualifications and went to university!! The way this girl stayed so positive was through imagining herself to be dancing even though she was totally paralysed. This really inspired me, to never give up on anyone because there's no one to "broken beyond repair". <3 


This status from my lovely friend Kate also inspired me;  "been so nice playing with the bunnies, ballet talk & learning about an AMAZING dancer who's recovered from ME :D I've also decided for my birthday I want some tap shoes! even though I'm not well enough to dance , I'm going to sit on the end of my bed when in well enough & do the simple things but sitting down until I can stand for longer! ;) ♥". - If you know her then you know she's an amazing ballerina and i know in all honesty that she will get better and dance again one day. She is a fighter and so determined and i know she will beat this and full fill her dreams. :) <3

Somebody who's already there at the finishing line of M.E and gives me absolute inspiration and hope every day, is my friend Hanna. (A.k.a Bff padlock;She's been a regular mention in my blog post so you've heard of her before ;)) She had M.E and was bed bound for years yet she too was determined and put in so much hard work to get better. And she did it, she's so positive. And even now when she's still battling with medical problems; she's one of the most kind, determined and selfless people i know. So thankyou for being a true inspiration to me Hanna. :)

 I write them in hope that someone whoever, who is reading this can smile and know that there's always a reason somewhere to smile. :) Unless with close friends or fellow AYME'ers i don't really like to talk about my illness too much. I get embarrassed going out in the wheel chair or looking pale or holding on to my friend or parents down the road hardly being able to walk and having extra help with things. People say it's nothing to be ashamed about and it's NOT. It's just sometimes you want to be known as yourself not the girl with the illness or somebody sick. You don't want pity. Your still you, just a fairy with a broken wing waiting to fly again i like to think. ;) I tend to want to be "normal" down to the very last detail, the make upped face, the in fashion clothes anything to fit in the mould and not be noticed or be different. That's down to a lot of things not to just my illness but then i've only just come to realise what is "normal"? Is it if we don't see someone crying, we assume their fine. Or if we see someone smiling or laughing their life is perfect. How do we know, because let's face it nobody knows how you feel except you. It's brilliant when you say your ok but you have them certain people who just instantly know your not. There there for you through it all and treat you like your you, support you and don't even have to ask for help or say your not well they just know. True friendship. <3


In life it's all about finding that perfect balance between knowing your limits but having that determination that lets you know everything will work out in the end because you're gonna make it. <3

Love Becca.

xox

Live Laugh Love...

Heyyyyy,


LIVE
So been quite busy time for me since my last post... good for boredom not so good for health... ;)
First of all got some exciting news that some of my photography photos are gonna be put up in a pub/cafe in St.Annes. So now just gotta pick which ones to put up... :D Keep reading my blog for upcoming posts about my photography and shiiz. ;D 

Then there was Madame Tausades which was good fun, my health was playing up a bit but nice to get out of the house with Hanna and see some awesome figures. We sat in the rovers with Deidre and then 2 old ladies came in and thought she was a wax work which was funny! ;)

In the rovers with Bet and Ken. ;)

Jezza, Jezza, Jezza ;)

It was Dad's birthday too so we had a nice birthday meal that momma cooked. Of course having a glass of ros'e isn't the best idea when your over tired... people don't try that at home... It's a recipe for disaster... ;) But here's a picture of me and dad on his birthday... :) 

LAUGH

Then came the greatest of all... I went to see Soph!! :D We had an amazing few days, took some brill pictures which will make and bad day (hello today ;)) better!! Watched movies (have to actually admit Soph has converted me into High School Musical... Omg... ;P), spent lots of time resting, and got a tour of the Wirrall! So many famous people live there! So jel ;) We went into Heswall on tuesday to get a smoothie i was the healthiest of all well everyone had creamy and choccy delights i had a delicious refreshing strawberry smoothie! Was so good, just gonna go up to Heswall never mind Soph i want them bad boys. ;) Anyway no matter how bad you feel a few days with your best friend is always a bit of TLC. ;D 

Yes i look rather peculiar but i love
this so much!

At West Kirbyyy Beach! :D

What happens when me and Soph are
let loose with the face paints...

Bubblesssssss, :DDDDD <3

Marshmallow slime never good,
always funny though. ;)

LOVE

It's been a time of loving at Soph's we exchanged gifts in the morning and watched Valentines day, took some crazy pictures as you do ;) Went for the awesome smoothie and had a romantic chinese meal with Sophie. ;) Not forgetting a funny little skype with Sarah. :D Soph and Sarah were ganging up on me but in this time of loving gotta love my girlies. ;) 

Drinks all around ay, ladies ;) <3 Who needs men... ;)

Valentines meal<3

Love this Skypey times (:

Can you read it?! It says LOVE ;D

Enjoying the chinese are we Soph ;D

I know what your thinking...
 we are too cute! ;)

Been feeling rather rubbish since i got back but due to a few lovely friends of mine, they've cheered me up... 

My biggest smile is from these beautiful
flowers off Kate for Valentines day!
Love them! <3

My rubber duckies off KelseyKoo ;D

Made me smile, thanks Sarah!
<3

Life might not be all we hoped for but whilst we're here let's make everyday count and Live.Laugh.Love. :) <3

Love Becca

xox

Beauty isn't make up...

Well hello again, :)

I thought today's post would be about seeing the inner beauty of people and things. It's often assumed that beauty is how you look on the outside; the perfect weight; the perfect eyes, the perfect nose, the perfect teeth, the perfect you. But is that really what beauty is? Or is that what we've been led to believe to think that to be accepted is to be who everyone else wants you to be, everything other than yourself. The best beauty to me is the inner beauty, the one that makes you love a person. If you have inner beauty, you are beautiful, because when you love others more than yourself. You glow, you are perfect. :) So many people think  you have to mould into everything everyone else wants you to be including me. But why? Because the model on the run way is a size 4 and your a size 10? Because one of your friends has the 'perfect' nose and yours is a little wonky? Or maybe because you're the shy one who's lonely in a crowded room? Whatever the reason, i'd love to wake up one day in a world where to be who you are is to be something extraordinary. Schools and work places have the hierrachy's, magazines have their perceptions, and people, well they have their own battle going on. One against themselves. Even the most confident of people have their flaws,what needs to be realised is if that was admitted and accepted, that is what would make them perfect.

All i know is since doing my photography and being ill, it makes you see things so differently. It gives you a chance to see beauty is everywhere, maybe foiled by a rainy day, a giant sweater or even lack of self belief. i never wanna stop seeing  REAL beauty for what it is... something magical. :)

I'll never believe that i look the right way, say the right things or do the right things. But what i do believe it that i have is amazing people around me that let me know no matter how much i see the flaws in myself that they believe in me and accept me for who i am. More than that they say it's ok and to  me there is no greater gift than that of the support of true friends and a loving family. :)

Beauty is in the eye of the
beholder. <3

Definition of a true friend and true
beauty. :) i owe thanks to this girl for
the rest of me life. <3

This girl is truly an beautiful inspiration
to me. <3 Pure gold. <3

This girl is MAGICAL PERFECTION.
Enough said. <3 

Whether a person of my past
or future, she's one of the
most beautiful people i've
ever met. She helped me
through one of the toughest times
of my life so far and for that i'll
always be thankful. <3

"We stick together and we see it through,
oh you've got a friend in me." - Have
amazing memories with this amazing girl. <3

These people have been
the light to the dark days,
"Keep holding on. You know we'll
make it through." Love my super
supportive inspirations. :)

My weird yet wonderful family. <3

"Beauty is in everything. Just not everyone see's it."

Bye for a week ;).

Love Becca
xox

<3!!

Capturing the beauty of life. - My Photography! :)

Heyyyy :),


Thought this week's blog would be about a hobby i'm really enjoying at the moment and that's... Photography! :) After getting my new camera for Christmas; i've been loving going to places and experimenting. I love how photos can have a meaning, i think the quote; "A picture speaks a thousands words" is really true. You can put your own perception on it, and as someone who is a bit of an over analyser i quite enjoy coming up with my own idea's. It's a really nice feeling when you capture a nice shot, it's a reward in it's self for me, sounds silly but it makes me smile. :)


I've also created a facebook page here's the link if anyone wants to take a look; http://www.facebook.com/pages/Life-is-like-photography-we-use-negatives-to-develop/223164891103538 :)


Here are some are my favourite's so far:

Them eyes are telling a few stories
;D <3

Like the setting and unusual cloud. :)

  

Sunset at Fairhaven :)

One of my first photography
shots. :)

"Looks like a magical fairy land"
- Katie <3

Better droplets than a downpour. ;)

My fav one so far. :) 

Dad and Soph love this one. :D

:D <3

The sun will always shine no
matter what. :)

Love this abstractness of this!
:D

I've got a long way to go but what's life without a bit of work and persistence ay ;) A goal of mine during my lifetime would be to get a photo in a magazine. :D Beauty isn't just in people its literally all around and i wanna keep capturing it all i can. :) There's so many bad and ugly things about the world so i love how photography can show the ugly's side inner beauty. ;) I'm working on a few things to get my photos noticed and hope to do a photography course to learn new things in the near future. So expect to see and hear more about my photography in upcoming blogs. :) Another hobby of mine is making jewellery but you'll hear more about that in more upcoming blogs too. 

Hope you're enjoying blogs to anyone who is actually reading them. ;)

" Everyday might not be so good but there's something good in everyday." <3

Love Becca.

xox